I ruin everything. I ruin great things that come my way. I ruin relationships and hurt the one that’s been there for me. But only because I can’t find my way around knowing that he was like that… I blame if on myself. He thinks I am cheating on him but I would never do such a thing. He doesn’t realize how much it hurts me…

I want to give up. I want to get over everything. I can’t live like this anymore..